“Lord, help me”
The tears started rolling down my face. Once again. Yesterday, in front of my sister. Today, after hours of working on my resume and looking for internships that could fit my profile.
Back in August, a friend of mine who lost her job because the office she was working for decided to close on a whim (apparently), told me: “you don’t completely trust God until you have nothing else besides Him to trust in”. I nodded. “I agree”. A few months later, I still nod. In fact, I nod all the more when I face the actual challenges of having lost a “position” as a student, and, in a way, as a future professional.
Continue reading “Chronicling my journey: the unknown”
“Have mercy on me, O God, according to your steadfast love;according to your abundant mercy blot out my transgressions.Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity,and cleanse me from my sin!” (Ps 51:1-2)
“Blessed is the one whose transgression is forgiven, whose sin is covered. Blessed is the man against whom the Lord counts no iniquity,and in whose spirit there is no deceit.(Ps 31: 1-2)
“In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace”(Ephesians 1:7)
Compared with the miracle of the forgiveness of sin, the experience of sanctification is small. Sanctification is simply the wonderful expression or evidence of the forgiveness of sins in a human life. But the thing that awakens the deepest fountain of gratitude in a human being is that God has forgiven his sin. Paul never got away from this. Once you realize all that it cost God to forgive you, you will be held as in a vise, constrained by the love of God.
I won’t be long today as I am getting ready for my exams- yet, I really had to share that really short blog post by Jen Wilkin on her blog The Beginning of Wisdom; her reflection on the tendency lots of people have, because of social media (Instagram but also Facebook, blogs, and whatever app that exists), to get their “spiritual meals” on Instagram was definitely very convicting and worth reading.
It resonated with me in a particular area: I love reading blogs on modesty or scrolling through Pinterest, going from board to board and stealing modest outfits ideas. Sometimes I spend too much time there. But, isn’t modesty something biblical ? Yeah, sure. But you cannot base your whole theology on clothes. Its an element, pointing to something greater, and it can be made an idol under the pretext of godliness, at times.
See you after my exam, ya’ll !
13Who is going to harm you if you are eager to do good? 14But even if you should suffer for what is right, you are blessed. “Do not fear their threats ; do not be frightened.” 15But in your hearts revere Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect, 16keeping a clear conscience, so that those who speak maliciously against your good behavior in Christ may be ashamed of their slander. 17For it is better, if it is God’s will, to suffer for doing good than for doing evil.18For Christ also suffered once for sins, the righteous for the unrighteous, to bring you to God. He was put to death in the body but made alive in the Spirit.
(1 Peter 3: 13-18)
Whoever guards his mouth preserves his life; he who opens wide his lips comes to ruin.- Proverbs 13:3
Whoever restrains his words has knowledge, and he who has a cool spirit is a man of understanding- Pr.17:7
A fool gives full vent to his spirit, but a wise man quietly holds it back.-Proverbs 29:11
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.-Proverbs 3:5
Above all else, guard your heart,
for everything you do flows from it.-Proverbs 4:23
Lake Baikal, Siberia-credits: Pinterest
What I am saying, brothers, is that the time is short. From now on those who have wives should live as if they had none; those who weep, as if they did not; those who are joyful, as if they were not; those who make a purchase, as if they had nothing; and those who use the things of this world, as if not dependent on them. For this world in its present form is passing away. (1 Corinthians 7:29-31)
“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33
Through him we have peace with God, and so in him we have peace in our own minds.-Matthew Henry
Via Pinterest- Trade your plastic for mason jars !
I lost my glasses.
The good thing is that I know where they are: probably at home, because the case in which I carefully put them every time I take them off is still at my parents home. But I cant find them, and I know why. We have way too much stuff.
Back to my student life. Sometimes, I spend more time on cleaning instead of, like every student, being at my desk studying.
Because I have too much stuff in my apartment. My parents are overly generous and every time they come over, they bring bags of food, clothes I left at their home, cleaning supplies, new towels “just in case” and all sorts of gadgets. They are so kind. But though I was blessed during my student years to learn, by living on my own, how to be a homemaker and I learned lots of housekeeping skills, I’m still convinced that I have spent more time cleaning than the average student. Not only my parents, but my relatives never miss an occasion to give: you’ll probably see it in one of my future posts on the topic, but I lost track of the number of makeup palettes my aunt gave me as presents.
I am all for hospitality and generosity, but the strain I endured because of all that clutter in my life made me realize that it’s time to rethink the way our consumption.
There are plenty of posts on zero waste/minimalist post on the Internet if you are not familiar with that movement/trend yet. I probably won’t become as radical as Bea Johnson, whose lifestyle I love yet for lots of reasons I can’t get rid of everything I own so it will definitely be a long journey. However, I will try to document it, in pictures- and as I declutter my apartment, I hope to make more space in my life for other things…
Stayed tuned for the next post !
Time flies ! WordPress just sent me a blog anniversary notification. I thought I would write, on this occasion, another “count your blessings” blog post !
I’m thankful for:
- All the refreshments -water, water sprays and fans available during the heatwave
- An easy start of the new school year, with an exciting (and busy !) program and friendly colleagues
- My English professor who was kind enough to review my resume and my cover letter
- The fact that we have access to medications: my father is now under antibiotics because he might have been bitten by a nasty tick… (= probability of Lyme disease😦 )
- Tomorrow, God willing, my mom will turn 56 ! She still looks like a little doll and probably is the most beautiful and perfect 56 yo in town (Ok, I might be biaised but really is that beautiful both inside and out). I will never take my mom for granted. She is a cancer survivor and went through many hard times in her life and in spite of that, her optimism and joy in the Lord strucks me every day. I love her and I am so thankful for her- she is my best friend, my miracle and my joy.
- All the school supplies that make studying fun, and more generally all the comforts I am able to benefit from as a student.
- The hope that the Lord Jesus is near
- Answered prayers: I prayed that He would make me bolder for Him. As I naturall am a people-pleasing person, He is teaching me, through many things and experience, to put Him first and not to be ashamed of Him.I realized that the more time you spend with Christ, the less you are afraid of man.
- Puffed rice chocolate (OF COURSE THIS IS A BLESSING !)
- A lesson I am learning right now: That there is no substitute for God. For example, no matter how spiritual and good someone might seem, he or she will never be able to fill the void in your life …